October 4th, 2012 I woke up at about 4 am and found out I was going to be a mother. This was the best day of my life (next to Trevin being born and meeting Trent and marrying him). I couldn't sleep so I stayed up looking at Pinterest for baby ideas.
He was still touring with his band but he was local for most of the month. I planned on telling his parents and I made a cookie that said 'we're pregnant' and taking it over to their house. We were in Roy, I was working on a Christmas tree that me, my aunt, my cousin, and my sister were doing to celebrate Chelise in the festival of trees. I decorated the cookie there and went to pick him up at the school they were getting ready for since they were playing their the next day. We started to drive back to his parents’ house to tell them and I was really tired from not getting a lot of sleep so I closed my eyes and then I woke up hearing "Shit!!". I woke up and said "what happened?" and I saw red and blue lights going off behind us and he was driving my car. The officer asked for both of our id and he went back to his car and the first thing I asked him was "you don't have any warrants for your arrest do you?" and he had told me no. The officer came back to the car and asked him to get out and they started talking and I was watching what was going on. Then the officer put him in hand cuffs and placed him in the back of the car. He had warrants for tickets he didn't take care of and was being booked into Davis County jail. The officer wasn't the friendliest to me and I was crying and didn't know what to do and I was extremely embarrassed. I was lucky he was getting booked into a different jail then the one I worked at. I called his mom and told her we weren't coming over and what happened then I called my aunt and told her what was going on and she met me over at the jail and helped me find a bail bondsman. She helped me bail him out since we were living pay check to pay check since he wanted to be a rock start so badly. I remember him walking out of the doors smiling and thinking it was funny. He didn't say thank you for getting him out or anything. To this day I wish I would have left him in there and let him figure it out himself and take responsibility for once. That night he got a ticket for going 90 on the freeway. A couple days later we picked up a cake that said 'we're pregnant' since my cookie wasn't good anymore and took it over to his aunt’s house were his parents were at. His grandma from St. George was in town and was also there. They got back from dinner and we brought out the cake and they were all shocked. His sisters’ birthday was on Halloween and I gave her a gift that had a baby shirt in it and she was so excited. I wanted to tell my family until after our first ultra sound and they were also excited. My first ultra sound was in November and I still remember seeing my little baby for the first time. It really hit me hard that day that I was really going to be a mom. They say a woman becomes a mom when she is pregnant and a man becomes a dad when the baby is born and this is defiantly true! Most of my pregnancy I spent working or being home alone with my two dogs. He toured and wasn't ever really home so it was just me and my two dogs Ryder and Honda. Luckily I didn't have much sickness only a couple times throughout my pregnancy. Since we lived in an apartment I had to leash up the dogs to take them to the bathroom. I had cat people that lived in the bottom unit and they would just let their cat outside all the time which was against the rules. One time I was taking out the dogs towards the beginning of my pregnancy and I didn't see the cat at the bottom of the stairs and both the dogs pulled me down the stairs and I went down a flight of stairs and once I finally got them under control I was nervous about the baby. I took another test the next day and it was still positive. I had called the front desk to complain about the cat but nothing ever happened. I'm just grateful Trevin wasn't hurt. I went to most of my doctor appointments alone and they had to set up a special date to find out the gender and of course the father couldn't make it because he was leaving on tour to Vegas that day and he wasn't going to miss going to Vegas... We paid a different ultra sound place to find out the gender so he could be there. When I found it I was having a boy my heart melted and I cried, I was so happy even though I thought it was s girl. I picked out his first name and his middle name is from family on his dads’ side. I was naming him Trevin and the name was set and not to be changed. When I was home alone I would watch Army wives and one of the people on there was named Trevor and I had really started liking that name but wanted to change it a little since his dad had a friend named Trevor and that's how Trevins name was picked! We filled up black balloons with blue confetti and took them to our parents and they popped them to find out the gender. My dad was thrilled!! At my work Christmas party he introduced me to everyone and said "and that's my grandson in there" even though we didn't know the gender yet. I was glad I had my dogs there with me and Ryder would cuddle with me all the time and he was attached to me and Trevin. Since we already knew the gender me, my mom and my sister went to the appointment together. My mom told the nurse "we are just here to make sure the penis didn't fall off" and I laughed so hard!!!! I had some problems with my blood pressure and I was on the line for gestational diabetes. I had to do a lot of test but the gestational test came back okay and thank goodness for my sweet tooth because taking the nasty drink for the test wasn't bad at all!! Since the father was gone a lot it was a lot harder for me especially emotionally. You would think that he would be concerned and call and check up on me at nights but he didn't. In about November or December we got into a fight and he had told me he was talking to another girl that he met through one of his band friends. His excuse ways he was he was depressed and needed someone to talk to. I remember crying in the parking lot at work talking to him telling him I'm home alone pregnant and taking care of the dogs and apartment alone and I wasn't talking to anyone else. I have some great friends at work that comforted me and told me I shouldn't be with him and I wish I would have listened to them. I understand you shouldn't be with someone if you aren't happy but if that's the case then you should end things right and not stepping out of your commitment that you made with them. The months went by and I loved my pregnancy and sometimes I miss it (and no there won't be any like babies anytime soon). I was lucky that there wasn't any problems during my pregnancy, except my blood pressure was high. My sister and mom set up my baby shower which was great and so cute and we had a bbq with his friends and of course they were all drinking. Looking back at all the drinking and parties I am glad Trent doesn't involve himself in things like that. I'm blessed to have Trent in my life now and I can't wait to continue our family in the future. <3
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